Now, labor started well before that but I chose to stay home as long as possible (at the time we lived 5 minutes from the hospital). Plus I wasn't 100 % sure I was in labor. My contractions weren't regular and I had what some called "back labor".
But I was! I was so scared, as every new mother would be in that situation. Honestly, at times, I'm still scared. I remember saying "I can't do this" to my husband but I did! Having back labor is not fun at all. When I finally pushed her out it felt like she was pushing every vertebrae in my spine.
She has changed my life in so many ways. I had first learned about love by falling in love with my husband and getting married but having a baby is a different kind of love. I am far from a perfect mother. I yell sometimes but at the end of the day she, at 7, still wants snuggles so I can't be that bad right?
I love her more than I can fully ever say or show. I worry every day about the kind of mother I am to her. I don't have a normal 9 to 5 job which I know I get judged because of it by others. My focus is her. I have two degrees but I work from home so that I can be the primary caregiver of our daughter while she is still a kid. This may change but for now, this is what we are doing.
Time goes by so fast! These seven years flew by and in only six more years she will be a teenager!